Does it hurt?

if it ever come across your mind that wat i'm doing now is to hit you back, u guess it wrong... I have no intention to pay back on you... its not my style...

Its written all over your face that it does hit you even if its abit... come on dun act to be strong wen its killing you badly... Probably u never thot i would do this to u... Probably you thot there wont be any other guys except u in my life... For all those who come recently, i believe they are juz frenz for me... On whether i will fall for them, i shall not say it now...

Like the saying says, "You will only realise it till its gone"... I guess thats rather true... My standing in your life doesnt seems to be recognize anymore... No matter you keep on saying you want me n you cant afford to lose me, but the problem is you never do anything that could keep me... You took my independancy for granted...

So much i hate to be in this... Hurting other people indirectly... But i guess for now, i got to think abt myself... My life... My needs... My wants... I once set my needs on you but i'm not sure of it anymore... It kills me badly to go thru all like this... Maybe you do know how much i suffered having to be ignarant and oblivious abt everything... You dun know how many nights i've cried wondering y this have to happen to me... You dunno how weak and tired i am to convince myself that everything will be ok...

I never ever ask to desrve sumthing like this.. I never ever ask to be love like this... I tried so hard not to show my pain to you or the rests... But i guess it can be seen clearly thru my eyes... i took the pain i swallow my pride i hid it inside deeply as possible...

I love you.. n i dun want to hurt you... But y do you hurt me wen you love me..? Is this your way of love...?