The Question
I didnt see this coming.. Thinking that everything was just fine.. But i think so no.. Was just telling my dad that i got BBQ this weekend.. N surprise me, when he ask me a few questions..
Questions in which i myself are not sure of the answers.. Maybe for MY answers, yes, im certain of it.. BUT i cant make a decision or give an answer base on me alone...
I'm in this relationship with Ubby.. I wont deny, ours are rather the secret love relationship.. Not everyone knows abt it except his family, my family, my clozy, our colleagues.. But the people ard us are the one who are wondering for our definations..
Wish i could have the answer.. too bad i dun have it right now.. Reason is simple coz im not sure of his plan for us.. On how far he want us to go, seriously i dunno.. On whether he want to keep me till marriage.. In whether he want to really be serious with me.. Seriously all that i'm jus not sure of.. Knowing him, he never like to talk abt this...
But with my dad asking me, putting the pressure on me, i got to have a definate answer.. So much people dun want to see me hurt, i myself dun want to keep continueing being like this..
If Ubby could give me a definate n certain answer abt us, i can rest assure we are able to save our relationship.. But if till the moment i ask him yet he still couldnt be sure abt us, from the bottom of my heart, i got to leave him.. n i really really got to be firm n be strong abt it... In which i dun want to.. but if i have to, means i have to.. once my parents get involve in my relationship, start asking for some certainty, i guess we must have create a huge trouble/problem for everyone without us realizing it...
Watever it is, it all depend on Ubby.. Pretty much hope he could come out with some certainty.. I noe no one like to be in a situation whereby they have to choose.. But please, i have to.. I just have to know Ubby's wise choice.. I just have to push Ubby for this..
A wrong decision will lead to the end of us..
Ubby..!! Please help me with this..!! I truly love you.. u noe it too.. i dun want to lose u.. i just dun want to.. Wish u could be in my shoes.. n understand my emotions n my thinking.. feel like how i feel.. n think like how i think.. My mind cant think of anything now.. I'm all stressed up.. :'(
Questions in which i myself are not sure of the answers.. Maybe for MY answers, yes, im certain of it.. BUT i cant make a decision or give an answer base on me alone...
I'm in this relationship with Ubby.. I wont deny, ours are rather the secret love relationship.. Not everyone knows abt it except his family, my family, my clozy, our colleagues.. But the people ard us are the one who are wondering for our definations..
Wish i could have the answer.. too bad i dun have it right now.. Reason is simple coz im not sure of his plan for us.. On how far he want us to go, seriously i dunno.. On whether he want to keep me till marriage.. In whether he want to really be serious with me.. Seriously all that i'm jus not sure of.. Knowing him, he never like to talk abt this...
But with my dad asking me, putting the pressure on me, i got to have a definate answer.. So much people dun want to see me hurt, i myself dun want to keep continueing being like this..
If Ubby could give me a definate n certain answer abt us, i can rest assure we are able to save our relationship.. But if till the moment i ask him yet he still couldnt be sure abt us, from the bottom of my heart, i got to leave him.. n i really really got to be firm n be strong abt it... In which i dun want to.. but if i have to, means i have to.. once my parents get involve in my relationship, start asking for some certainty, i guess we must have create a huge trouble/problem for everyone without us realizing it...
Watever it is, it all depend on Ubby.. Pretty much hope he could come out with some certainty.. I noe no one like to be in a situation whereby they have to choose.. But please, i have to.. I just have to know Ubby's wise choice.. I just have to push Ubby for this..
A wrong decision will lead to the end of us..
Ubby..!! Please help me with this..!! I truly love you.. u noe it too.. i dun want to lose u.. i just dun want to.. Wish u could be in my shoes.. n understand my emotions n my thinking.. feel like how i feel.. n think like how i think.. My mind cant think of anything now.. I'm all stressed up.. :'(
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