I wish...

i wish that i have the answer to all the questions.
i wish that i have the way out of these misery.
i wish that i could make him n people see my bleeding heart.
i wish that my tears can be seen.

i may be happy.
i may be smiling.
i may be laughing.
i may be carefree.

But does anyone know that i'm in the deepest shits in life.
does anyone know i'm crying inside.
does anyone know there's a girl inside of me crying out for help.
does anyone know that i did put out my hand but no one is willing to reach for it.
does anyone know that i'm all stressed up.

i gues no one understand me. Whats more with him.

Here i am trying my best to make our relationship worked.
Here i am trying to be strong even wen i'm weak.
Here i am hoping n praying that one day he will realize my existance.
Here i am wishing he will truly love me.
Here i am thinking positively abt my relationship.

But still i'm stuck here with no direction, with no lights of guidance, with no definations, with no certainty.
All i want is him.
All i need is him.
All i want is happiness.
All i need is love.

He may not be a perfect person. Not sumone that everyone would be proud of. But i see him.. I see the person in him. I believe in him. I have faith in him. I'm sure one day he will change progressively for the better.

i love him. Truly love. Deeply love.

What do i have to do or sacrifice to be his forever? Tell me!!

i just wish thing will be much easier for me.. :(