Still as happy as before
Juz an update on my life once more.. i noe in my previous entry, i was telling how blissful i was to have him as my bf.. N now, shocking news sat in.. I broke up with him once again.. Sad? Yup i am, but for two days i supposed... after that, i was back to normal..
im just thankful that the seperation was sumhow for a good reason.. I believe its for our own good.. No matter how confident i am in this relationship, keep mentioning that i will be able to go thru it with him, but with due respect to him, i accept this seperation willingly.. i shld think for his part rather than just being selfish thinking abt myself...
so after some thot, i wouldnt mind sacrificing this much for my love.. on whether its worth it at the end of the day, i shall leave it to Allah.. HE knows it better than we all do.. Insya'allah it will be for the better.. Amin..
As for now, i'm still as happy as before.. Still smiling, still laughing.. Moving on with life doesnt mean u cant be happy with sumone from ur past.. No theory say so.. Indeed, i believe we r much more happier now with no string attached.. Its like u got a misery gift.. N u'll get al curious wanting to know wats inside..
everyday we experience lots of surprises.. Unexpected things happened, be it good or bad.. But all in all, at the end of the day, we go back smiling.. Its like we made it...
It wasnt easy for me to befren with my x rite after a break up.. this is my first.. for all i remember, back then, i usually shut myself from all my exes.. So to go thru this, i have to fight with lots of emotions n negativity.. If i want to jus follow with my heart without even thinking, i will suffer like i did most of the time.. But now, i get emotional for a moment, then do deep thinking, trying to recall back the conversations we once have, do some filteration on the words, and i finally see it come to senses...
So people please know that i'm not suffering like before.. Im putting on my positive cap.. N i just want to lead life happily.. No more suffering.. Its freaking waste of time.. I believe in wat i believe.. n i still have faith in good things will happen someday..
Done with all the kiddy act of "geng tak geng".. Delete then add.. Then delete n block.. Then wen missing the person, contact back once more.. Pfft.!! So kiddy sia.. Jus take it as it is.. Jus live with it.. Thru pain n sorrow, deal with it..
im just thankful that the seperation was sumhow for a good reason.. I believe its for our own good.. No matter how confident i am in this relationship, keep mentioning that i will be able to go thru it with him, but with due respect to him, i accept this seperation willingly.. i shld think for his part rather than just being selfish thinking abt myself...
so after some thot, i wouldnt mind sacrificing this much for my love.. on whether its worth it at the end of the day, i shall leave it to Allah.. HE knows it better than we all do.. Insya'allah it will be for the better.. Amin..
As for now, i'm still as happy as before.. Still smiling, still laughing.. Moving on with life doesnt mean u cant be happy with sumone from ur past.. No theory say so.. Indeed, i believe we r much more happier now with no string attached.. Its like u got a misery gift.. N u'll get al curious wanting to know wats inside..
everyday we experience lots of surprises.. Unexpected things happened, be it good or bad.. But all in all, at the end of the day, we go back smiling.. Its like we made it...
It wasnt easy for me to befren with my x rite after a break up.. this is my first.. for all i remember, back then, i usually shut myself from all my exes.. So to go thru this, i have to fight with lots of emotions n negativity.. If i want to jus follow with my heart without even thinking, i will suffer like i did most of the time.. But now, i get emotional for a moment, then do deep thinking, trying to recall back the conversations we once have, do some filteration on the words, and i finally see it come to senses...
So people please know that i'm not suffering like before.. Im putting on my positive cap.. N i just want to lead life happily.. No more suffering.. Its freaking waste of time.. I believe in wat i believe.. n i still have faith in good things will happen someday..
Done with all the kiddy act of "geng tak geng".. Delete then add.. Then delete n block.. Then wen missing the person, contact back once more.. Pfft.!! So kiddy sia.. Jus take it as it is.. Jus live with it.. Thru pain n sorrow, deal with it..
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