Time for you to smile..
Feeling too stupid n all mixed up with wats happening now.. everything are just too contradicting.. The pain is just too crucial.. But does it even matter to them.. I guess no.. Plain selfish who expect people to understand them but never others.. Trying to be the Somebody.. ya rite..
I try to be strong for my close ones.. I try to be strong for my parents.. For people who know me, then they know what actually happened.. But i'm not going to explain it here.. Its jus a freaking waste of time.. Its over n done with..
Past few days, i havent been myself.. Being all stressed up over the issues.. Satisfaction? not even close to it.. But wat to do.. This aint my fate.. So be it.. I cant force anything..
Wat i need is just support from my close ones.. So long they r able to give me the strength to move on, i will survive anything..
Surprise me when my own mother is secretly worried abt me.. Coz she see the slight changes in me.. Being moody, sad, cry, always want to be alone, and mostly silent.. Wow.!! its so not me to be silent at home.. i'm like the loudest one at home.. So if i being silent, there must be sumthing wrong.. They know me too well..
So just a moment ago, wen Ummy ask me abt the situation.. Thinking i cld hide.. but i just cant.. She will worry even more.. So i told her, "There's no more".. thank god, ummy was cool abt it.. she didnt make much comments.. So much she once favour him, so much she once hate him for wat he did, but at least she wasnt so furious wen she noe the ending.. To be said, its rather expected..
Now, i personally decided to move out, back out, watever got to do with out.. I dun want to stay.. We wont be fren, we wont be close, we wont be anything we're supposed to be.. All we are now r just colleagues.. Unless either of us quit.. Then we will be nobody towards each other..
Only one advise i got from Ummy, which make me find its worth leaving, "Kalau kau betul-betul cinta kan dier, anggap ini sebagai pengorbanan cinta kau".. i absolutely agree..
I hope my sadness will be sumone else happiness.. If you're happy then i'm happy..
So time for you to smile widely for my leaving..
Bye.!!
I try to be strong for my close ones.. I try to be strong for my parents.. For people who know me, then they know what actually happened.. But i'm not going to explain it here.. Its jus a freaking waste of time.. Its over n done with..
Past few days, i havent been myself.. Being all stressed up over the issues.. Satisfaction? not even close to it.. But wat to do.. This aint my fate.. So be it.. I cant force anything..
Wat i need is just support from my close ones.. So long they r able to give me the strength to move on, i will survive anything..
Surprise me when my own mother is secretly worried abt me.. Coz she see the slight changes in me.. Being moody, sad, cry, always want to be alone, and mostly silent.. Wow.!! its so not me to be silent at home.. i'm like the loudest one at home.. So if i being silent, there must be sumthing wrong.. They know me too well..
So just a moment ago, wen Ummy ask me abt the situation.. Thinking i cld hide.. but i just cant.. She will worry even more.. So i told her, "There's no more".. thank god, ummy was cool abt it.. she didnt make much comments.. So much she once favour him, so much she once hate him for wat he did, but at least she wasnt so furious wen she noe the ending.. To be said, its rather expected..
Now, i personally decided to move out, back out, watever got to do with out.. I dun want to stay.. We wont be fren, we wont be close, we wont be anything we're supposed to be.. All we are now r just colleagues.. Unless either of us quit.. Then we will be nobody towards each other..
Only one advise i got from Ummy, which make me find its worth leaving, "Kalau kau betul-betul cinta kan dier, anggap ini sebagai pengorbanan cinta kau".. i absolutely agree..
I hope my sadness will be sumone else happiness.. If you're happy then i'm happy..
So time for you to smile widely for my leaving..
Bye.!!
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