For others..
Seeing how my life goes, i guess im born to make other people happy instead of myself. im born to sacrifice whatever i can for others. even my own happiness.
no one know how much i've been hurt. no one know the pain i have to deal with. coz they are being fooled by my smile n laughter.
n now, i guess i have to make another sacrifice for our love. its not jus 'I' but its more of 'WE' have to make our last sacrifice for our love.. I will leave for good.. Tho we both noe we are not willing to.. But we have to.. Remember for the sake of others..
This time round if i leave, there wont be anymore us.. I'll shut my heart for everyone.. Not even to the new or even to him again.. he knew he's the last that i want to be with.. n if i cant get him, then i wont love again.. trust me this time round k..
n as for him, he say if things wont make any difference or if there's going to be another failure, then he too wont be with others..
think it again, we are actually making a stupid sacrifices.. but like wat older generation believe, that wat u call true love.. U sacrifice for the sake of other's people happiness eventho the both of u are deeply hurt.. So ya..
i'm not sad for leaving him.. but i'm more sad for leaving his family.. I dun ask to be close to his family.. the bond we have was unbelievable.. im super duper attached to them actually.. they welcome me n accept me for who i am.. Afterall i never pretend or fake myself.. i'm jus being myself.. never in my life i spend more time with someone else family rather than my own family.. n can u call that an effort for love.. i guess so..
but now, i gues i got to leave them.. They too know that one day they will lose me.. they know that i will sacrifice myself by not being with them again for others.. n thats wat i'm going to do now..
I'm so going to miss the whole family.. mami, papa, nur, fauzi, arul.. i wil miss the moment we spent time watching TV/ DVD together.. Miss those moments when we eat together like a one family.. Miss those laughter n jokes we exchange with each other.. i will miss those time when they care for me.. they make me feel so at home.. I will miss mami's nagging abt Ubby.. I will miss papa teasing me.. I will miss arul's mind-his-own-bisness self.. i will miss nur's calling me "org giler"..
But out of all, i will miss the lil princess the most, Nur trisha... the way she smile at me when she saw me.. The wayshe give me a blank stare everytime when i look different.. The way she laugh wen i tease her.. the way she will come close to me when i hold her.. the way she look at me wen i call her sayang.. i truly love her..
:'(
i just wonder if wat i'm doing if the rite thing.. hopefully it does.. nvm.. i wish all the best to whoever.. i've done my best in this relationship.. n i'll make my leave now.. dun worry i will be fine.. so long there's my family n the close ones, i will survive..
no one know how much i've been hurt. no one know the pain i have to deal with. coz they are being fooled by my smile n laughter.
n now, i guess i have to make another sacrifice for our love. its not jus 'I' but its more of 'WE' have to make our last sacrifice for our love.. I will leave for good.. Tho we both noe we are not willing to.. But we have to.. Remember for the sake of others..
This time round if i leave, there wont be anymore us.. I'll shut my heart for everyone.. Not even to the new or even to him again.. he knew he's the last that i want to be with.. n if i cant get him, then i wont love again.. trust me this time round k..
n as for him, he say if things wont make any difference or if there's going to be another failure, then he too wont be with others..
think it again, we are actually making a stupid sacrifices.. but like wat older generation believe, that wat u call true love.. U sacrifice for the sake of other's people happiness eventho the both of u are deeply hurt.. So ya..
i'm not sad for leaving him.. but i'm more sad for leaving his family.. I dun ask to be close to his family.. the bond we have was unbelievable.. im super duper attached to them actually.. they welcome me n accept me for who i am.. Afterall i never pretend or fake myself.. i'm jus being myself.. never in my life i spend more time with someone else family rather than my own family.. n can u call that an effort for love.. i guess so..
but now, i gues i got to leave them.. They too know that one day they will lose me.. they know that i will sacrifice myself by not being with them again for others.. n thats wat i'm going to do now..
I'm so going to miss the whole family.. mami, papa, nur, fauzi, arul.. i wil miss the moment we spent time watching TV/ DVD together.. Miss those moments when we eat together like a one family.. Miss those laughter n jokes we exchange with each other.. i will miss those time when they care for me.. they make me feel so at home.. I will miss mami's nagging abt Ubby.. I will miss papa teasing me.. I will miss arul's mind-his-own-bisness self.. i will miss nur's calling me "org giler"..
But out of all, i will miss the lil princess the most, Nur trisha... the way she smile at me when she saw me.. The wayshe give me a blank stare everytime when i look different.. The way she laugh wen i tease her.. the way she will come close to me when i hold her.. the way she look at me wen i call her sayang.. i truly love her..
:'(
i just wonder if wat i'm doing if the rite thing.. hopefully it does.. nvm.. i wish all the best to whoever.. i've done my best in this relationship.. n i'll make my leave now.. dun worry i will be fine.. so long there's my family n the close ones, i will survive..
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