I miss...

I miss every single part of myself... I guess i lost it sumwhere along the year.. I dun recognize the person that i see everyday in the mirror... Looking at the person, brings thousands of regrets n tears...

i miss my long curly hair.. the curls that people thot i perm to get it.. whereas i'm freaking proud that its all natural...

i miss my cheery self... the self that forget how to be sad... the self that only enjoy life as it is.. the self that never suffer from thinking too much on her fate n destiny..

i miss the fleshy self.. the body that i once proud of.. the body that everyone envy.. the body tat make any clothes i wear fits nicely on it...

Now, to gain all that back once more will take months or years... i lost it... n no way i can gain it tat instant.. if i could turn back the hands of time, can i turn to the moments before june ends and put on A->B mode, so it would jus replay from the first till the part i want it to freeze..

I miss being myself so much... :(