War of emotions...

*Deep Breathe*

I'm tired..
I'm all teared up..
I'm losing so much love..
Faith n believe...
N i'm suffering silently..

I put a smile on my face..
But deep inside, i'm dead...
I no longer live the life that i deserve..
I no longer being happy with wat i got..

I'm like a puppet that move according to the hand...
I'm like a puppy that hunger for love...
I'm like a sick person that is waiting to die...

I tried to say it to you but u never want to understand..
I tried to find the best solution, but i'm still stuck..
Slowly my love is fading n i'm giving up...

There's war deep within me..
War of emotions..
Mixed of frustration, sad, disappointment, happy, etc..
But can i say it out to you?
NO!!

You shut your ear before i explain..
You turn ur back on me before my tears fall down..
You ignore everything before even thinking abt us...

Its us tat i always think of..
Its the love that we feel deep within us..
The love that is so true...
But y does it have to hurt...

Is this how it should be.?
Suffering bcoz of love?
Isnt love supposed to be beautiful...
But y is it destroy my life..?

I cant beg, i cant plead..
I just sit here still n bleed..
This is by far the worst i've ever been in my life..
A mixed of happy n sad..
A mixed or poison n cure...