Not you but ME
Was sitting down with ummy... then she popped a question.. "Bile kau nak tunang?".. I was stunned... I never thought that she could even ask me that.. she continue "Tunang time deepavali ar... kan cuti panjang... Tak ya bikin besar-besaran..."... i was lost for words... If deepavali is in one month time, i wouldnt mind considering it.. but deepavali is in FEW DAYS time... Wow..!! Thats a stupid risk sia...
Afterall, after wat happened, i doubt there would be any engagement or marriage... i was once excited wen we start planning it... but now, i loss of hope... i dun even want to think of it... so much i've been dying or wanting to build that future with the one i love so much.. but now i put it on hold.. I'm still confused.. I no longer have the confidence with myself... Not to say there wasnt any assurance from him, there is.. but its just me...
Am i even ready for this major decision? I always find that i have more flaws than strengths in myself.. N having that, i always look down on myself... How can i ever be perfect for sumone when i myself is not perfect... He is indeed the one that i want to build my mosque with.. Not a castle.. not a house.. but A mosque... He is the one that i choose... He is the compilation of my past, present n future..
The question is "WILL OUR DREAM COME TRUE EVEN AFTER WHAT HAPPEN IN REALITY?"..
i need to know that... Will you love me till the end of time? Will you stood by me thru my strengths n flaws? Will you care for me thru my sick days? Will we ever be get to experience pure true love n happiness? Will we..???
Afterall, after wat happened, i doubt there would be any engagement or marriage... i was once excited wen we start planning it... but now, i loss of hope... i dun even want to think of it... so much i've been dying or wanting to build that future with the one i love so much.. but now i put it on hold.. I'm still confused.. I no longer have the confidence with myself... Not to say there wasnt any assurance from him, there is.. but its just me...
Am i even ready for this major decision? I always find that i have more flaws than strengths in myself.. N having that, i always look down on myself... How can i ever be perfect for sumone when i myself is not perfect... He is indeed the one that i want to build my mosque with.. Not a castle.. not a house.. but A mosque... He is the one that i choose... He is the compilation of my past, present n future..
The question is "WILL OUR DREAM COME TRUE EVEN AFTER WHAT HAPPEN IN REALITY?"..
i need to know that... Will you love me till the end of time? Will you stood by me thru my strengths n flaws? Will you care for me thru my sick days? Will we ever be get to experience pure true love n happiness? Will we..???
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